15W1D gestation and 3W of bed rest today. Alhamdullilah, baby is still sticky in my tum-tum. It was definitely not easy to stay positive while on strict bed rest with minimal movements and still bleeding on and off. Will baby survive this? There were so much uncertainty ahead of us. But hey, I am slowly getting used to this.
The trip to my gynae's clinic was not that easy. I was easily breathless and felt sick the moment I walked or stood on my feet for more than 5 minutes. I think that's what bed rest do to your muscles from all the lying down. Sitting down while waiting for my turn was no less comfortable for me. Needless to say, with all the movement I made on that day made me bled much more than the usual days.
We did the ultrasound scan the moment we're in the room. Thankfully, the blood pooling had gotten smaller in size from the scan. When I saw my baby wriggle and heard its heartbeart, I felt so relieved.
My gynae extended my hospitalisation leave to another 4 weeks. Clearly, I was not out of risk yet until the bleeding stops but seeing that the subchorionic hematoma was getting smaller, it was reassuring for me that there is still hope for a successful pregnancy.
My husband has been super supportive throughout my bed rest. I felt like I was in an A-ward class where I have a private nurse serving me meals and checking in on me the whole time. On some days, I cannot help but felt super down, alone and helpless that I can do nothing much to ease his burden. Aside from taking care of me, he needed to settle the kids and housework. So much sacrifice and patience, I love you dear.
Also, I have been thinking long and hard seriously about quiting my job. I figured that there is no way I can switch my mind and body to work mode when my hospitalisation leave ends. If my work is not that demanding, I probably could go back to work. I am thankful that I get the few weeks' rest to put my mind off work and still get paid my full salary. Sometimes I feel guilty but most of the time, I felt that I deserve this break for all the hardwork that I have put in for the company the last 1.5 years.
Financial is definitely top of my mind right now. Although I have some savings that I can leverage on for another year, I cannot help but feel worried if there will be any pregnancy complications that will strain us financially in the coming months. There are many thoughts running through my mind on how our life will be impacted if we now depend on a single income. So many risks, but I just feel that I need to prioritize my health this time round. The work stress would probably get to me and put me on high risk throughout my pregnancy.
If you have any tips or experience on switching from being a full time working mum (FTWM) to a stay at home mum (SAHM), do let me know how you manage to cope with that.
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